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Would you mind reading my poem please. I need this for school?
It was a lovely affair, a marvelous affair
we lords and our ladies were meant to be there
amidst all the royalty, riches and lore
a night to remember…I shall evermore

but
not for the pageantry…jesters…or rhyme
not for the feast…nor the music and wine
not for the castle and all of its frills, no
I shall remember……that someone was killed

but….
It was a lovely affair, a marvelous affair
my lady Lucinda was pleased to be there
and topping the evening a priv-i-leged few
were summoned inside the king’s secret room

just for the gentlemen that he had in mind
just like a fool…I was giddy, but blind, for
just in a moment my life would be changed
for I was to play….in a king’s bloody game

but….
It was a lovely affair, a marvelous affair
my daughter Cassandra was thrilled to be there
but now I was seated with five other lords
each given a goblet, each given a sword

drink! said the king with his bellowing roar
drink to this game you’ll remember I’m sure”
drink to this peasant my guard’s dragging in, and
we toasted a man…..so decrepit and thin

but….
It was a lovely affair, a marvelous affair
my son Alexander was proud to be there
and now said the king it is time that we play
as he refilled our goblets with red cabernet

“you have it easy my lords he began
you have your station and acres of land, but
you never once had to ever decide
if someone shall live…or someone shall die…”

Yes…
It had been a lovely affair, a marvelous affair
my sister Melinda was charmed to be there
but now I was trembling in cold blooded fear
for the king had just slashed off this poor fellow’s ear

“look at this blood that I have on my hands
look at the pain I’ve bestowed on this man
look how he shrivels and hear you his screams
as I’m forced to do every night in my dreams!”

What was, a lovely affair, a marvelous affair
was now…but a privileged curse to be there
for the king put his dagger all slathered in blood
on the table before us and now it was spun

“each gets a turn with his sword on this man
each has to share all the blood on my hands, and
each of you will…or your title is lost
that my dear lords…is the game and the cost!”

I’m sure
it was lovely out there…a marvelous affair
where lords and their ladies danced without cares
but now the king’s dagger was pointing at me
and the king said your turn…and was chuckling in glee

no….I won’t do it I screamed to his face
no….you’re insane you’re an utter disgrace
no….we won’t play in your murderous game

and the king said, let’s see, if your friends feel the same

it was a deadly affair, a horrible affair
for now I was tied by the guards to my chair
soon the kings dagger was spinning again
time after time I was slashed by my friends

not one iota of sadness or grief
not hesitation, but more like relief
not one, had mercy…just hacked…as I bled
and the last words I heard….

“Off with his head!”
I have to make a few adjustments on the beginning of some stanzas. Could you please tell me what you think?

Suggestion by laughablechick
wow. this is really good and you are very talented. good job, that was awesome!!! i loved it!

long but worth reading

please answer my question

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=AoLTXnLUh4KtAg5kF1lKxmnpy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20080331163241AAbgcGO

Suggestion by A Person
i dint read the whole thing it was too long but sure

Suggestion by xdeadpoetsocietyx
why is it in the polls and surveys section?

Why do you girls play mind games?!?
Seriously there is this girl that I love but she gets off at playing this pointless games with me. I know, I know that ALL girls play them, because they don’t want to seem desperate and have probably read it somewhere that if you want to attract a guy then you must hurt him by playing this games but when she continues to play this games my heart breaks and my respect for her falls in the negative range. Are there girls out there that DON’T play this games? Do girls ONLY play games with guys they like? If so I guess I would feel a little better….

Should I start playing games with her, to show her what it feels like, and if so what kind of games should a guy play (the kind that would push your buttons girls)?? If it was up to me I would continue to love her and be there for her, but she would rather hurt me. Isn’t it funny that girls with there feminine beauty and such innocence look can actually be so cold hearted. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Sincerely – heartbroken =(

Suggestion by Jack X
Why do you let them.

Seriously, people only have as much control as you freely give them.

Suggestion by DanJC18
The Chase is the best Part thats why.

Suggestion by ?
well, i dont have a billion years to read whatever your saying but good luck!

Was it the devil and god speaking to me or just my mind playing games?
Ive been going through real rough times lately and Last night i was working at my office by myself and i came across this article online about Jesus Christ and the Devil. I was reading it about how the Devil plays tricks on you and how he deceives you when all of a sudden i got goosebumps all over me and i felt a negative energy around the room…i didnt see any shadows or anythnig but i just felt a dark precense a heavy one. I felt like i wasent alone in the room. I started screaming get away get away ! i know ur in here devil ! I know if ppl wouldve passed by and see me they wouldve looked at me like who is this lady screaming to? But i swear i felt a bad energy in that room…it wouldent go away for awhile then i started preying to god inside my head. I felt like he was talking back to me inside my thoughts telling me dont worry believe hes not here ignore him. My own thoughts were telling me to calm down. I kept fighting with myself saying but god the devil is here tell him to leave and he will anwer back saying everything will be fine. I was so scared and god calmed me down. Do you think this was really god and the devil? or, is just my mind playing tricks on myslef. ? god was speaking to me inside my mind..it was like me and him were talking inside my mind. Asking him to please tell the devil to go away because i thought he was next to me ! i dont think im shchizophrenic because i go to a threpaist and he diagnosed me with PTSD.

Suggestion by jenny
Im sure youre not schizophrenic, dont worry. You can bring it up to your therapist though, it might give more insight in the therapy

I am not a religious person and this is in a way an issue of faith, and who can know- certainly noone can prove or disprove that this was god and the devil any more than anyone can prove or disprove that these exist. What matters is what you make out of this.
If it wasnt the devil and god, what could it be then? Might it be that after reading the article you had some bad feelings and anxieties because the article was scary? But then instead of attributing this to the article, instead of recognizing and dealing with them you attributed them to something outside of you? In a way im sure it can be easier to deal with fears manifesting outside of you, being pinned on something outside, rather than feeling them and coping with them inside. I find that is true for me when i am scared but dont really feel that its ‘legitimate’, that its easier to pin it on something on the outside cause then it is a real threat. Have you ever found that true about yourself at other times? Do you validate and accept your feelings of anxiety when they arise? how do you deal with fear?
Im sure it must have been pretty scary. I know that personally when i get scared my senses add on to that fear making it bigger and bigger. Sometimes a simple thought of ‘what if..’ can make fears explode into something scary. Well thats just an alternative theory. To my comfort, I think that if the devil, the source of all evil, was in my room right now (haha just had me looking over my shoulder, and im not even religious!) he would probably manage to do a lot of harm more than just being there muttering. Id think the lord of evil has too much time on his hands! So i would tell myself that no, that was not the devil, that was the embodiment of my fears. but thats me

Whether it was god that comforted you or not, noone can know. Again a question of faith. Noone can proof or disprove that it was. However its win win. If it was God then of course that cant be bad, having God as someone helping you out. Now if it was NOT, then there is something VERY comforting about that view also. Cause if so, then you found your strength and comfort from within yourself. You were your own defender. You yourself then gave you the security to go on and feel safe. The power in that is quite big

Im sure ptsd does not make it easier to deal with stress and fear, this might contribute to how you interpret things that scare you. I would not stress with what this means too much, certainly not worry. Bring it to your therapist and share it, and see what positive lessons and meanings you can draw from it. It is one of those experiences where no matter how you take it you can bring something valuable from it

Good luck!

He is planing mind games and it’s driving me crazy!!?
My Hubby and I were together for two years!! He did a lot of bad things to me, and I forgave them all. We had a messy break up two months ago. Please help me and tell me what to do. I LOOVE HIM SO MUCH!!

First he wants nothing to do with me. A month later we reconciled, and we had open communication together. The next day he told me he wants nothing to do with me ever!!!! I was devastated – then he E-Mailed me this. WHAT DO I DO?

I love him so much, but he can’t make up his mind? Do I respond to this? I can’t even trust him.. G-d, this is so hard, and even harder to read between the lines what he really wants from me?

I just want us to be happy in our lives, thats it! I guess ill call you one day when I feel Comfortable so we can all finally put this behind us and move on with our own lives.

Wherever destiny may take us, Im sure happiness and love will follow as two angels who will strike our hearts. There is someone for everybody out there Amanda! I believe that we can be civilized humans beings and be on Respectful terms , but love is just not a part of it.

When Im ready and Comfortable, Ill call you to see how is everything going in our lives . If not, You can call me out of Respect to see how all is going.

Im very happy for you for all the success and happiness you share in your life right now. All the best and continuity of Success for Amanda!

Good Luck and Take Care Amanda.
One thing I want to add THAT’S VERY IMPORTANT!

His friends are a big influence – they don’t like me for G-d knows why! I was only nice to them. I know behind my back they tell my ex hubby “get rid of her bro”. Then, he tells me off – then, when he is at home lonely, and mopey – he misses me!

Suggestion by You asked, I answered
File for divorce, and find someone who cares about you the way you deserve.

Suggestion by Pixiep
You walk away. You said it yourself. He did Horrible things to you. Now he doesn’t even want to work it out. I know you can’t see it but this is probably for the better. This kind of relationship isn’t love it is abuse.

I no it is easier said then done but move on.

Suggestion by Cooker
Move on. He has tried revisiting the relationship several times to see if he had possibly made a mistake deciding to leave. And after that, he has now ready to call it a day.

You can love him all you want, but if he doesn’t love you in return it is time to close the door and make a life for yourself. THAT means you do not initiate any further communication nor do you respond to him when he contacts you to prevent your own feelings from being just a roller coaster.

Put a fork in it.

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