I just reread https://www.gq.com/story/stephen-colbert-gq-cover-story on grief, joy, going beyond pat answers
"The urge to be grateful, he said, is not a function of his faith. It's not “the Gospel tells us” and therefore we give thanks. It is what he has always felt: grateful to be alive. “And so that act, that impulse to be grateful, wants an object. That object I call God."